Friday, March 11, 2005

Finally a Friday....

This has been a long week for me. I have been so weak and fatigued. I try to go to Curves 2-3 times each week and walk the days I don't, but it's getting to be such a struggle. I'm very tired by the time I get home from work. It's so hard to know if I am overdoing it, or not pushing enough.

I keep hoping they will find something else that is wrong. Something that we can fix. But all the things they test for come back negative. I know that should make me feel better, but it doesn't. I don't want this nasty disease to have control of my life. I want control. I want to tell it to go away, to leave me alone. But there is no control for MS. It goes where it wills, when it wants, and takes a course that we can do nothing about.

I feel myself losing ground. The numbness is spreading, the pain is increasing, and there is nothing I can do about it. I'm not ready to let it take me down yet!


At 3:43 PM, Blogger Michelle said...

I want to be the first to welcome you to the MS "fog". Be assured that it DOES clear and that it DOES get better, if only one day at a time. Hopefully you don't mind, but I have linked you to My Site. Keep your head up!

At 5:47 PM, Blogger ckays1967 said...

hello....I have a AOL journal and MS too...welcome.


At 3:19 PM, Blogger Stephen said...

Ditto what Michelle said - it does get better, as you get used to the very idea, and space opens up to find control in other parts of your life. And don't ya just love Friday?

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At 2:51 PM, Blogger Clare said...

Hi there.
I have MS and would like to say its a roller coaster ride and you have good and bad days. Just remeber your not alone and lots of us are out there to help and share experiences.
Last year I was in a wheelchair for awhile now i am walking again (with a stick).
I take each day as it comes and keep fighting on.

At 5:52 AM, Blogger Have Myelin? said...

The MS Fog. You'll get thru it. Been there, done that, been there again, done it again.

I found as time went by the secret is to keep active. Both mentally and physically as much as you can. Of course you will have your limits, that cannot be avoided.

I'll add your blog to my links!


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